• Reintroductions

    The about page for this blog has been updated with the following:

    This system has of late become more complicated.

    Lynn (an obvious alias) has been getting better with help from myself and reliable help over in the system-of-4.

    Ky has been…corrupted by the other, and we’re in the process of fixing that.

    Bastienne, who started out as one of Lynn’s characters, is now cowering in the headspace, as he received enhanced versions of all of Lynn’s fears.

    And I, my friends, am Achilles. A demonic teddy bear who, despite my original ideation as Bastienne’s caretaker of sorts (as I still am), am now more or less in charge around here because I was much more real before that and simply moved in where I needed to be.

    Though we aren’t currently in a position where we have that much time to use this blog, it seemed like the polite and precautious thing to do in updating a bit.

    #lynn  
    #ky  
    #system  
    #updates  

  • 2 years ago
  • 3 years ago
  • Update on Alina:

    She’s gone. Wandered back out as is usual with the little ones…

    #ky  
    #lynn  
    #alina  
    #plural  

  • 3 years ago
    3 years ago
  • Anonymous said: What is Lynn's blog? Also, do you guys watch United States of Tara?

    Anon, I’m not going to give out my personal blog here… I’m not out over there and someone I talk here already seems to have clued in to what it is, so I’d rather not.

    Also. I don’t happen to watch that, though I have thought about trying. As it is, it’s too much effort right now, considering my lack of television and energy…

    Sorry.

  • 3 years ago
  • xochichel:

    It’s OK. I’m awake now. Donna started screaming and woke me up. 

    - Lilu

    Good to know. Hope things will be alright.

  • 3 years ago
  • xochichel:

    kysystem:

    xochichel:

    kysystem:

    xochichel:

    help

    …?

    No one is home. Lilu fell asleep and Ophelia wants to do something bad. I don’t know what to do.

    Find something distracting. For you and Ophelia as well. Any common interests there…? How does anyone else usually keep Ophelia from doing anything…?

    Lilu always makes sure she only cuts a little and stops her from doing anything else. I don’t know how. Ophelia keeps telling me it would be better for everyone. I don’t know. I’m scared.

    Would it be possible to wake Lilu up…? If you can’t, stay away from anything sharp. Could you possibly take a walk…? Or find someone who knows about everyone who could help…? I’m not sure how much help I can be… I’m here too, though.

    #lynn  

  • 3 years ago
  • xochichel:

    kysystem:

    xochichel:

    help

    …?

    No one is home. Lilu fell asleep and Ophelia wants to do something bad. I don’t know what to do.

    Find something distracting. For you and Ophelia as well. Any common interests there…? How does anyone else usually keep Ophelia from doing anything…?

    #lynn  

  • 3 years ago
  • xochichel:

    help

    …?

    #lynn  

  • 3 years ago
  • …Things are not going well right now.

    Obviously. Lynn is very very very unhappy. Hence Sei (one of her easily reabsorbed medians) splitting off the other day to post things here…

    Lynn started her first actual semester of college about a week ago. It’s already stressing her out to the point where she’s out front for class and homework, and then refuses to do anything else and leaves it all up to me so I pretend to be her a lot more now.

    Dem came to live with us, but that hasn’t been going well, seeing as she makes long ridiculously loud phone calls in the middle of the night while both Lynn and I are trying to catch what sleep we can. She’s also having some major trouble understanding Lynn’s limits for sociability… And she hasn’t even tried to look for a job once since she got here about two weeks ago, despite only having two more weeks to stay here according to the lease agreement before Lynn and her father get in trouble.

    What are we going to do?

    #ky  
    #lynn  
    #sei  
    #median  
    #plural  

  • 3 years ago
    3 years ago
  • Why?

    xochichel:

    “…….because you’re a bad girl. You’re disgusting. You make us sick. We have to do these things to you to punish you for being like this. All of this is your own fault. We have to do this. It’s our job to make sure disgusting, filthy girls like you get what’s coming to them. If you weren’t such a dirty little whore we wouldn’t have to punish you. Our hands are tied. You’re not fooling anyone anyway - we can all see how much you love it.”

    His words became my truth. They are so powerful - so all-encompassing. They are the sun around which my entire life revolves. They are just axiomatically true. 

    This…

    #mpd  
    #did  

  • 3 years ago
  • xochichel:

I will never be fixed. I just want to look whole enough from the outside that no one sees behind the smile on my face.

^^^ Exactly.

    xochichel:

    I will never be fixed. I just want to look whole enough from the outside that no one sees behind the smile on my face.

    ^^^ Exactly.

  • 3 years ago
    3 years ago
  • Hurting the ones you love

    xochichel:

    I don’t want to upset them. I don’t want to scare them. I don’t want to worry them. I don’t want them to hurt because of me. I love them so much. I can’t bear for them to know the darkness that’s inside me. I want to rewind. To go back before the cracks started to form. Back when the mask was in place. I don’t want them to feel my pain. I love them too much to do that to them. I would do anything at all to protect them from it. They say that I am hurting them by not telling them but they don’t know what I am protecting them from. I do it because I love them so much. I smile for them. I laugh for them. I hide the pain for them. I do it all for them. I want them to be happy. I want them not to know. I want them to believe the fairytale and live the happy ending. I don’t want to steal that from them like it was stolen from me.

    ….

    #mpd  
    #did  
    #cutting  

  • 3 years ago